Things are finally looking up in my life. I still hate myself but everything is doing better. Bills are finally caught up, my house is about to be paid for, starting a stable new job in about a week with benefits. My girlfriend is back home. Went out for pizza but overheard a supervisor yelling at the waitress who served us. I wanted to beat him within an inch of his life. I really really wanted to...My girl stopped me so I just got coffee instead. As I am writing this I still want to go back and put his head in the oven...why am I so angry...